Ouch!

So this morning was more an assesment than a full on workout. Which is good since I discovered how horrible in shap I really am. My weigh in was 250 with 36.5 percent body fat and 18 on the internal fat which is what surrounds the internal organs. That number is dangerous according to the trainer and needs to come down fast. So I guess its good I'm doing this! Mid way through my session I was doing one exercise and tweaked my back so we had to stop. It sucked. It still hurts. I'm just starting and have tweaked my back. This will be harder than I thought. It's my own fault. I let myself get to this point. I'm going to sign up for personal sessions for two weeks. I think this is a smart move becasue it will re-introduce my body back to working out before going crazy with a boot camp. But this is a good move and a needed one. I told the trainer today I would feel shitty if I died because I'm out of shape and overweight because that's something I could have done something about. where as if a car hits me there's nothing I can do about that really. He said "Well you are doing something by being here." So let's hope my back was just a small tweak not a major one and that I will be ready to go next week.

Tomorrow it begins!

I'm slightly nervous. I'm sure it will be fine. I'm not sure if I'm doing this one on one the first time or with a group. The normal class is a group and I'm guessing this is too. Guess I'll find out. Going to hit the bed to get a decent amount of sleep now. Goodnite!

Are you scared?

So I've done it. I signed up for a boot camp. I'm quite terrified actually. Not of going to boot camp itself, but of the work out in store for me. I am in miserable shape. I have visions of dying right there in the park. I know these are unfounded. I'm sure it will be hard but it won't kill me. And ultimately it will make me into the person I desire to be. Fact is I need this boost. I need to feel good again. About my body, health and spirit. They are all broken. I am praying for steady success and initial speedy results to give me the boost in motivation so I'll add new exercises like rock climbing, running, etc. Next summer I want to be the first summer I am excited to go to the beach because I have nothing to hide. I am still on level one of my game, but I just bought a power up. I have orientation Thursday morning. I'll let you know how it goes.